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XVI.
I confess so I can heal.
If I deny, I remain sick.
Pastor Perry was kind to me.
Having my music group, where I had placed nine years of effort, fold up and die after trial, error and a certain bit of notoriety, I found myself emotionally devastated. I didn’t want to do anything.
But my wife and I had three children who were unaware and uncaring of my trauma.
So I decided to call Pastor Perry and ask him if he needed an assistant minister at his church and if he would consider hiring me for the position for simple wages, room and board.
He said yes.
I don’t know why he said yes. I was not exactly qualified–being a journeyman musician does not prepare you for assisting in shepherding a flock.
But I went.
I quickly discovered that Pastor Perry was a flawed man. I was too young to overlook his obvious inconsistencies, and I was certainly too immature to set them aside and give him respect.
So when people in the church started preferring me and my teaching style to his, I ate it up with a spoon, while simultaneously mentally turning a knife on the man who was so generous in giving me an opportunity.
It was childish. And because Pastor Perry had his own issues, he decided to undermine my efforts–as I turned to degrade his.
It was all glossed over with a veneer of friendship and phoniness that still sickens me.
So great was our ego struggle that one night I forgot I was a dad, abandoned my responsibilities, and in an attempt to usurp my authority over Perry, let one of my little sons slip into the darkness, where he was struck by a car.
I did a lot of growing up over the next two or three months. My son survived but never regained cognitive abilities. I was such a fool.
I learned a valuable lesson. Even though God forgave me for my ridiculous choices, Pastor Perry was kicked out of the church and I was granted grace, I realized once and for all that the tally and sum of our sins is not lessened … by subtracting the iniquity of others.
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